I am NOT my ACNE!

Having acne in your teens is a normal thing right? The hormonal changes, clogged pores and painful pimples that comes with puberty and becoming an adult is what I call a teenagers mid-life crisis. Everywhere I turned most of my peers dealt with some sort of acne. I’m not one to say it was normal because during that time in my life I never really paid too much attention to it. Pimples, white heads, black heads, redness, I mean I slowly begin to have it all and to make matters worse I begin to pick at it. I had a bad nerve issue and it was either bite my nails (which later on I realize is totally disgusting) or pick and pop my bumps/pimples, and sad enough I entertained them both.

I would like to say it started to clear up after having my son when I was 17 years old but it did not. There was scarring and oily skin but no new pimples. As I became this profound young lady I begin to acknowledge my skin and the state is was currently in. As far as scarring I couldn’t get rid of that, I honestly didn’t know how to but I tried a few different things. Creams, oils, facials, and face washes unfortunately I never stayed constant with any of them so I didn’t see any results or take it as serious as I do now.

Began wearing makeup to hide the scarring I had done to myself by age 19 maybe 20. I basically relayed on makeup and unfortunately I kinda still do now. At a point in my life I cared about what people said or thought about me. Beig called names for my slim size growing up had already done things to my confidence and ego, so this was just added jabs to my self criticism. At, times I would cry about it sometimes, not only had I crushed the little confidence I had left but just couldn’t stop hounding the clear skin people I was seeing online. Social media has it’s way of making things seem better than what they really were and I believed it. Although my now husband complimented by beauty and constantly reminds me it will get better, my acne had full control of me and my doubts.

In 2013, pregnancy hormones had hit an all time high and my acne came back with a vengeance! This time it was all over my body. I broke out all over my back, neck and arms. At this time I had to be careful of the products I used so they wouldn’t harm me or the baby, so I was very limited to the things I would normally use to treat this problem.

I’m sure their are people who are reading this and think “girl you have no idea how bad my acne or pimples were” and you would be correct I don’t know. There are people with cyst acne problems way worse then I can even imagine but it still doesn’t repair the lack of confidence I was dealing with. Try wearing makeup on the beach, or just because someone was coming over for a visit. It was a cover up; a secret, I had to hide my insecurities put this wall up and not let anyone see how bad it was. Who wants to be seen with scar-face right?

I finally hit a breaking point and decided to look into a good dermatologist. That’s when I noticed my god sister (who also dealt with acne) face was clearing up and I received her dermatologist information. Earlier this year I begin my visits and I felt okay because this time around I just felt a change was coming. My faith in the process was huge and I just knew I was stepping in the right direction with the right doctor.

Now that I am on the right track I feel more confident, free to be myself more so than ever and honestly at easy. This is still a journey to clearer skin but I’m so happy with my results thus far I am enjoying the process. All I can say is if you suffer from acne or scarring, don’t give up keep looking around for new ways to clear your issue. I almost gave up but so happy I didn’t and truly happy with my results so far.

Thank you for listening.

Let’s chat about acne what are your issues or thoughts?

Simply Happy

Most individuals are still on the search to finding happiness. I find that the simple things in life make me happy. We all want to be happy and each one of us have different ways of finding it. Any way of escaping the world around you and focusing on what makes you smile, I’m all for it! This can be a list of things. From listening to nature sounds in a dark room or being around people who love you and enjoying the laughter. Here are a few ways I find my happiness in this little big world.

1. Prayer/Meditation

2. Listening to music

3. Being around my two boys

4. Playing in makeup

5. Take walks on the beach

6. Reading/writing

7. Helping others

8. Making people laugh

9. Date night with my husband

10. Just being free to be myself around those I love

The thing about it is, it took me awhile to know what made me happy. Like others I searched high and low, in places and things but it never really made me happy. If I was happy it had only been temporary. I learned that if you aren’t happy with yourself, you will not think you deserve affection and attention. You can find something to be happy about everyday, having a drink with a friend, eating your favorite piece of chocolate or listening to your favorite song on repeat. Start appreciating what you have because there are people who or less fortunate and struggling to be happy in this big little world.

Be aware of your emotional and physical triggers. My reaction to things that bothered me had certain triggers that kept me in a place I no longer want to ever be in. I started focusing on the resolution rather than the problem. Over thinking things caused me to be unhappy and worry about things I had no control over. I can honestly say prayer and meditation helped me so much in that area. Less worry and more praying; trust me it works. I learned to let God handle my battles and for that I became more happy. If only you knew worrying causes other problems especially with your health. We all know that will just be another bill to add to the list and no one needs more bills!

I took on writing at a young age and over the years I realized how it has helped me express myself more. Sometimes sharing my feelings to friends or family scared me. I feared being judged or criticized. On top of being shy (not that sh anymore thou) I at times felt like I had no voice, so writing became my happy place. Writing was a way to express my true self in a way that brought joy to my heart. I always recommend writing to those who have a hard time sharing to others how they feel.

Walking on the beach is one of my top favorite happy places. I mean why not! The waves are so calming and view is beautiful. I know a few others who go to the beach to meditate. It’s a place of freedom a reminder that there is so much more to be thankful for. How God created this gift to the world was so brilliant. Helping others make me happy I mean I can’t do much but every little thing counts and if I can put a smile on someone face, I am truly happy. When I see someone down or not like themselves I tend to make jokes ( I’m a goofy person all the time) get them to laugh if even for a second.

The world deserves to see you happy. Choose happiness any way possible. To be happy is to choose YOU. Start with the simple things only you know what makes your heart truly happy. It is your time, time to move forward, time to let go, time to forgive, time to just be free and simply happy.

Write down a a list of things that make you happy and try to focus on those things more.

Let me hear your feed back let me know the things that help make you happy! Have a blessed and prosperous day.

-BeautySlayHer

Makeup look

This was a test run on video editing and my first YouTube video hope you enjoy the shorty!

Can’t remember all the products but here goes:

Primers: Maybelline Baby Skin Instant Pore Eraser, Maybelline Master Prime Base

Eyebrow: NYX Tame & Frame Tinted Brow Pomade, L.A. Girl Pro Conceal (creamy beige)

Eyes: E.L.F Mad for Matte eyeshadow Palette (summer breeze), E.L.F Liquid Eyeliner, Maybelline Pumped Up Colossal Volum’Express Mascara

Foundation: NYX Can’t Stop Won’t Stop Full Coverage Foundation (golden), mixed with No7 Beautifully Matte foundation (cool beige)

Conceal/Contour: L.A Girl Pro Conceal (creamy beige), RK by Kiss Contour Artist Palette

Setting powder: Black Radiance True Complexion Loose Powder (Banana)

Hightlighter: Ruby Kiss All Over Glow Bronzing Powder (Light Glow)

My top 5 Drugstore concealers

Who doesn’t want the closest thing to perfect skin especially when dealing with dark circles from a long dreadful night. Resisting the temptation to layer on foundation to hide dark marks: the lighter consistency of concealer allows you to create a flawless base, as well as give a quick cover up just to run an errand. Here are my top 5 drugstore concealers:

(Photos courtesy of brand)

Maybelline New York Fit Me Concealer
After hearing from its customers, Maybelline New York has finally added more shades of its top-rated concealer to the selection, including both lighter and darker hues, as well as more undertones, too. Hallelujah — now even more people can reap the benefits of its lightweight, flawless-finish formula.
$7 (Shop Now)
MY NOTE: Not my current favorite but still around for a backup or when I’m low on other products

Nyx Cosmetics HD Photogenic Concealer Wand
Don’t let the price fool you: This 2015 Best of Beauty winner stands up against even the priciest department store buys, thanks to its flawless, my-skin-but-better coverage, long-lasting wear, and richly-pigmented formula, which covers even the most stubborn blemishes with ease. The high-quality concealer also scores major points for its shade range, which features 20 “nude” shades for all skin tones, plus green, yellow and purple versions for color-correcting.
$5 (Shop Now)
MY NOTE: Very pigmented so I normally wear this one during the winter
E.L.F. HD Lifting Concealer
This lightweight concealer can’t be beat. The long-wear fluid provides sheer, yet buildable coverage, while the inexpensive formula — infused with vitamin C, green tea, and mulberry extracts — works over time to brighten, smooth, and tighten dull complexions. Our only complaint? The shade range, which includes three colors for light-to-medium skin tones, isn’t nearly as extensive as it should be.
$3 (Shop Now)
MY NOTE: Light weight and also combine with L.A. Girl Concealer
L.A. Girl HD Pro Concealer
If you didn’t know, this creamy, ultra-pigmented cover-up was one of Walmart’s best-selling color cosmetics last year, which has to say something considering the competition. Nonetheless, this affordable option continues to garner rave reviews, especially amongst beauty bloggers and YouTubers.
$5 (Shop Now)
MY NOTE: Use this almost everyday, works well with many foundations

Maybelline New York Instant Age Rewind Eraser Dark Circles Treatment Concealer
This Best of Beauty winner doesn’t just cover undereye circles — it treats them. The thick, medium-coverage concealer camouflages discoloration, while the high-tech goji berry and peptide-infused formula works over time to plump thinning skin, erase fine lines, and reduce puffiness for a more rested, youthful appearance.
$9 (Shop Now)
MY NOTE: My new favorite undereye full coverage